Memory Book/Fractal Confusion (Kevin Breeman)

I believe that I would do well to provide a more a description of my activities than a personal history here. Through this I hope to give the reader a feel for who and what I am. I am not as good at straight-up telling people about myself. Instead, I suppose I am better at demonstrating myself. I'll let my actions tell their own tale and people can judge from that whether I'm a good person or not, a smart person or not, etc.

The Modus Operandi

I have approached this game with several major goals in mind. Broadly these goals include the intellectual and psychological edification of the players involved as well as myself, exploration of issues as they might evolve in the future (for example, religion and its role in society), and experimentation with literary styles. Let us examine each of these in turn.

Intellectual and Psychological Edification

I have done my best to create in Breeman a character with a rich thought life. In writing his thought life I have tried to give my readers some food for thought (excuse the pun). I've given Breeman a good imagination that serves both him as a computer programmer and me as a writer. I have been able to capitalize on his imagination in creating extended metaphors by which to carry themes and story arcs through multiple sims. The major example I can think of now is Breeman's 'crying issue' in some recent posts, in which the images of the planet Venus and of supersonic flight were presented as lines of thought supporting the main storyline.

The smileys have also served me as sources of interesting ideas, while also providing a readily deployable engineering task force to grant Breeman greater mobility (consider for example, Breeman's electing to join the boarding party aboard the USS Phoenix the USS Independence-A's retaking of that vessel).

In Breeman I have tried to create a voice of moderation. Whereas many of my PNPCs show some kind of extreme Breeman will try to correct these flaws. A good example of this occurred in a sim in which Breeman tried to bring Novak's excessive jubilance into check.

Breeman:  Mr. Novak, I understand that for you this voyage is a practicum.  But you still need to tow the line like the rest of us.

::Sarah was starting to understand.  She was coming down from her fun-loving undergraduate self and landing into a hardened shell of reality.  It was
 the shell which her mother and father had started to tell her about when she'd reached age thirteen and which the two had not stopped talking about 
since.::

Novak:  I-I understand sir.

Breeman:  Look, I know how you're probably feeling right now.  I joined starfleet because I didn't want to have the responsibilities that a life in the 
world would have meant.  But now I've got other responsibilities.  I have to serve this team as best I can.  Part of that was you and I testing out 
this devil's garden so that I can now tell Lt. Cmdr Brice that our ship won't be destroyed by a rogue spatial anomaly.


Novak:  Okay.  Thank you sir.  I will be more ... serious.

Breeman:  That's good.  ::He smiled::  Now let's go and get this report off to Commander Brice before he starts wondering what the holdup is.

When Breeman encounters flaws in himself I use the opportunity to produce interesting metaphors. It is my hope that through Breeman's voice I can provide inspiration to others both through the character's flaws and through his strengths. In short, for me simming is not only an exercise in entertainment but it is also an excercise in exploring the way things could be both in the world at large and in the internal world of the self.

Exploration of Issues

I have devoted some posts exclusively to exploring social or philosophical issues. For example, a recent post concerned Jan Droogendyk attending a service at the 'chapel' aboard DS-17. I employed Patri Jia Kom in order to look at neuro-plasticity in greater detail, after having read Norman Doidge's book. I had her brain somewhat damaged by the effects of a botched Grendellai attempt at tagging her as a slave. The effects of this slave tagging included an almost psychic ability to sense the transmissions of data abroad and more generally it led to Patri's having a very unstable personality.

Literary Style Experimentation

As mentioned previously, metaphor has played a large role in my sims. However, I have also employed dramatic irony. I worked with another member of my ship (Nickels) to produce a sim which explored the problem of occasional drops in self esteem as they are experienced by most of us. This sim made use of irony in that Breeman was attempting to hide his own emotions while the person with whom he conversed believed him to have been witness to a failure on his part.

Characters

Primary

• Kevin Breeman

Non-Player Characters

• Smileys
• Ithaca Ellens
• Jan Droogendyk
• Sarah Novak

Retired Characters

• Patri Jia Kom

Real Life information

I don't want to give too many details about myself simply because it is likely that those details come out loudly enough in the rest of this article. My education is that of a computer scientist and, to a lesser extent, a writer.

How you came to UFOP: SB118

My interest in UFOP began when I was trying to find a game in which it was possible to write collaboratively a story. Naively I fancied myself a rare breed in my interest in such an activity, believing that most other people would baulk at the idea of a game in which people had to work to produce a textual artifact rather than follow the pre-existing plot of a video game.

I was pleasantly surprised when I ran across UFOP and, not knowing the conventions of simming, I wrote a story for my entry sim.

History

I would like to tailor this section with some of my own information. However, for the sake of trying to be consistent with the template, I will offer first answers to the questions presented there.

Answers to Template Questions

Initial Placement

I was placed initially aboard the USS Independence-A. I found the game there immediately engaging. This isn't to say that there weren't challenges. For example I might have gotten a bit too picky with one simmer's writing style in an OOC and I worry that might have driven him away, as he shortly thereafter sent a note that he'd be taking a leave of absense.

Greatest Challenges

To be quite honest I find playing this game the most natural of any game I've ever played. Am I better at it than other people? I doubt it. It's just a good fit for me. However, as I've hinted elsewhere in this article, my tendency to get too overly attached emotionally to writing characters has gotten me into trouble on one occasion.

Also, citing sims in mediawiki format on this wiki has been rather tricky. One of my goals is to write or find a computer program which can format them in such a way as to make them readable here.

Greatest Achievements

I have accomplished several things while being a part of UFOP. The thing I'm most proud of I think is my simming logistics strategy of using linux's Festival text to speech engine to convert the set of emails for a given day into an MP3 for consumption while I perform various household tasks. I have had many long and enjoyable hours contemplating the motivations behind various writers and their characters while sweeping the floors or cleaning the bathroom or mowing the lawn.

What I hope Ultimately to Accomplish

I think I've provided a summary of that above. But perhaps more detail would be beneficial here. I think I've been having some measure of success in using this game to think more positively. Hah, I've said it. I've made myself vulnerable to the reader.

I have written narratives and contemplated scenarios in which many would give up and capitulate while my own characters and those of other writers have pressed on. This is a quality I love in people. When I do not see an incurable optimism in another I am immediately less attracted to that person. If someone has a defeatist attitude in life then that person has very little wisdom to share, save for a greater attention to detail in recounting the tragedies which have befallen them and the place of those tragedies in their history of mediocrity.

What I hope to accomplish then is to portray men and women, aliens and children, who, in spite of the greatest adversity and hardship, press on nevertheless.

Where I see this Group in Five Years

I don't really know where we will be in five years.

How this Group has Contributed to Star Trek's Legacy

I don't know that I am authority enough on Star Trek and its fanbase enough to comment. I have always seen Star Trek as probably among the best shows television has ever produced. Into a world of sitcoms and daily talkshows came a challenging science fiction series like Star Trek TNG. That was a legacy in and of itself. That had an effect on me. As to the effect it's had on other people, I have no idea. I don't watch much television anymore simply because I haven't the time.

Auxiliary Character(PNPC) Development History

Here I will give a brief description of the characters I have invented, in chronological order.

Jan Droogendyk

was drawn from my own experience working for an old Dutchman on a farm during the summers of my university years. He was a stern man but also one who taught me a good work ethic.

Ithaca Ellens

was based loosely on Ellen Ripley of the Alien series. She was left aboard Science Station 7623 to shut down a transwarp conduit experiment. She was inocculated with an experimental anti-radiation syrum but she was tormented by voles (common term for rodents throughout the galaxy) during the aftermath in which she waited in vain to be rescued by her comrades. Her story itself was based loosely on the strange guilt complex expressed in HP Lovecraft's "The Rats in the Walls" and also on Coleridge's "Rime of the Ancient Mariner."

Patri Jia Kom

was a character whose story consumed my time more than Breeman's. This eventually led to a major incident involving a marathon sim. In short, she was designed to explore human emotion from the standpoint of a human outsider. She was a quasi-romantic heroine in that she was tormented by the consequences first of divorced parents and second of a botched slave tagging attempt that left her with a prosopagnosis preventing her from recognizing her parents.

Patri's story and its subsequent closure as a result of the emotional ramifications of my getting far too deep into it, prompted me to create a much less tormented female character,

Sarah Novak

A carefree university graduate, Sarah Novak is currently serving a practicum in software engineering aboard the USS Independence-A.

Key Simming Strategies

Narrative Voice Injection

This involves making use of the narrative voice to add a bit of effect to a post. For example, consider the following piece of text:

The chair under him lurched a few centimetres but his body felt stationary and motionless. It wasn't that the physics on the bridge were in some way violated so much as that his brain, in conforming with the laws dictating the physics of this region of space, did its feeble best to maintain conscious experience with the disjointed information. Where parts of his sensory system were able to register, small temporal fluctuations in other portions of his brain were causing reality's coherence to diminish a bit. Of course Kevin was not able to recognize this at the time, and so I must clarify the matter as his narrator in order that this narrative might maintain the coherence which its subject lacked in experience.

Here, the narrative voice acts as a meta-character, mentioning that he/she/it must clarify a few things for the reader since Breeman himself is unable to fully recognize what he is experiencing.

Historical Memoirs

Breeman frequently cites references from a journal kept by a mysterious and often suicidal great great great ... great grandfather in the 21st century. By means of this source of information I am able to use Breeman as a vehicle to comment on issues today through a 24th century lens.

Nothing is Sacred. Everything is Significant

This has been an underlying creed in my writing here and elsewhere and even in my living of life in general. There is no experience which cannot be explored, no person from whom it is not possible to learn. Even those pessimists I was complaining about earlier in this article can teach us to have greater resiliance in the face of the peanut gallery.

In producing sims I engage in a no-holds-barred pillaging of my life and of the books I've read, the people I've met, and the places I've been to produce the posts. There's no place I won't go and no experience I won't draw from, good or bad. For example, I was able to capitalize on my experience viewing the rather bothersome movie "Last House on the Left" in improving post traumatic stress narratives for Breeman. Of course I don't add really personal stuff - that goes without saying.