Roshacari/Personal Log

Roshacari's Personal Logs Log Title Stardate Log Body Aboard the Apollo-A 239207.30 I am finally aboard a ship, and I can't wait to start my mission. This seems like a lot of fun for me and a good opportunity. Meeting The XO 239207.31 Today I met the First Officer on the Apollo-A. He seems very nice, but I have yet to meet the captain due to a problem. Out Of Phase 239208.01 I am pretty confused on my new ship. Apparently people are out of phase, and we have lost half the crew. I am a bit worried, though I will do my best to help. Another strange thing is, people keep passing through things. Odd, right? Mess 239208.03 I made a mess of myself on the bridge today. I was annoying on the bridge, and I said and did things that I am not proud of. I wasn't really feeling myself. Maybe it was all the pressure I was under, I don't know. I hope nobody thinks any different of me because of my behavior. Meeting Chief Helling 239208.27 Today I met the Chief Security Officer. Well, not even that, I saw her and was assigned to do a check with her. The Feeling Of Love 239208.28. I am in love. It is quite a strange feeling to have after you haven't loved for so long. The special person is T'Var Helling. She is the chief of security, and is a Lieutenant. She has to be the most beautiful person I have ever seen, and I am so pleased that we have met. What is interesting though about her is, she is Half Klingon, Half Human. I never thought I would meet someone from such a race, that I would like. I had to read her mind to figure out she liked me, and it was a very unique experience. I had one thing that I never confessed to her though, I read a lot of her thoughts, more than I told her I read. I don't think I will ever be able to tell her. Anyways, I think I am just excited because she invited me for dinner, and I accepted. I look forward to going and spending more time with her. A Date 239209.02 I just got back to my quarters after an exquisite visit with T'Var Helling. She invited me to dinner, and we ate in Six Forward. It was quite a pleasant meal, in which she and I kissed for the first time. I have to say, I was rather surprised that she didn't punch me off of her or something. I also need to note the fact that I have random impulses that I don't seem to be able to control recently. To continue, after dinner, I took her, blindfolded, to the holodeck in which we sat under the stars and went for a swim. I had thought about asking her out, but it never occurred to me it would happen so soon. I decided to do it tonight, and surprisingly, she accepted. I am contemplating if her and I being so close will affect our jobs or anything. I truly hope that our relationship will be able to prosper, but at work, we maintain a professional atmosphere. I am rather tired after the mission, and I am needing some sleep. I will try to catch a wink or two before my internal clock decides to wake me up. Party 239209.13 Party wouldn't be the exact word I would use to describe what I am at. It is supposed to be a gathering of some sort, to meet people, but I have yet to meet anyone. T'Var hasn't shown up yet, and I honestly don't know what to do. Do I talk to someone and make a fool of myself? do I stay in the corner and look alone? Do I go and get something to eat? Do I go back to my quarters and sulk? So many options, and yet I am just sitting here, staring at everyone else enjoying themselves.