Mailea Labria/Personal history

Her first hosts were strict followers of Surak and with complete suppression of emotions, kind during Mailea’s gentle years, when too much strong emotions could harm her. But at the same time made her grew up thinking that her powers are something to be ashamed of, what is following her whole her life, even now.

Second hosts were "V'tosh ka'tur" or "Vulcans without Logic". Life with them was constant test for Mailea and everything she learned about suppressing emotions and controlling her powers. But she was happy. For the first time in her life Mailea was feeling... but it didn’t last long. Her hosts decided to join their like-minded compatriots in their nomadic life and search for those who left long ago in search for fusion of logic and emotions.

Mailea, taught to experience emotions fully and abandoned again, was devastated. And this was the first time since her arrival to Vulcan that she was reminded how different she is, when was denied Kolinahr.

Again in “proper” family managed to find a tutor and make him lead her on a ritual pilgrimage which she planned to be a cleansing, but old man teaches her many important lessons, making her appreciate her ancestry, and everything her difference mean. And among them also the fact that her emotions as strong as they are, are there to help her learn control.

Among many stories, last one stayed in her mind forever...

Sarvak: The battle rage between two “wolves” inside us all. One is Evil - It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego. The other is Good - It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.

After thinking about it for some ime she asked..

Labria: Which wolf wins?

Sarvak: The one you feed.

Finishing this story he left her in a base of mount Seleya, to meditate through his teachings and accept IDIC.

When returned “home”, she did it with decision to join StarFleet...

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Whole her life she knew she wants in Starfleet, and was preparing for it, finding her place in research. She was good in sciences, both soft and hard, as also medical sciences and first aid

Every time when some kind of end happened it was a time Mailea felt her uniqueness as a burden. All her colleagues were writing happy letters to their loved ones to tell them of their great accomplishments. Everyone has someone to turn to when it was hard to lean on when needed strength to proceed. She had no one. She was one and only, a child – creation not even her creators wanted. She was always different and always in wrong place.

When was found as a little child and her psionic strength recognized the fact she was also part Vulcan made people who found her sent her to Vulcan.

Was it right choice for a girl. For a long time she hated it. It was never easy or gentle on her. Never right. But can anyone choose their parents or a way to live through childhood. Listening to her roommate from Bajor waking up screaming in the middle of the night Mailea was happy for relative safety she had in her youth. But watching gentle parents with hands full of gifts visiting their children, even her roommate, Mailea felt always so lonely.

So after two years on Academy always spending those days hiding... and in tears, on third she made a list of places to visit, not to be in a dorm when they come.