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** To do what he can to continue to deserve his Lieutenant promotion, and any promotion he may get in the future. Also to do his best at his job as Head of Infrastructure Development, work on his leadership skills. He'd like to feel like he's contributing as much as he can, helping people in whatever way he's able, and doing what he can to make any place he ends up better than he found it. | ** To do what he can to continue to deserve his Lieutenant promotion, and any promotion he may get in the future. Also to do his best at his job as Head of Infrastructure Development, work on his leadership skills. He'd like to feel like he's contributing as much as he can, helping people in whatever way he's able, and doing what he can to make any place he ends up better than he found it. | ||
**His other goal is one that came with the move to Denali Station. A goal of self-acceptance and a release of insecurities that he picked up over his years in Starfleet. He knows he can't go back to exactly who he was before the academy, and he can't go back to exactly who he was before the assimilation. He will always have quirks and possibly neuroses that align with those experiences now. But he wants to reintegrate things he thought he had to hold back. Weird Aurelian traits he enjoyed about himself before he started feeling like others were uncomfortable with them. Before he started feeling that if he didn't wear his closest approximation of a humanoid mask people would not want to be around him. And he wants to do that while accepting that he doesn't need to go back to anything that no longer serves him, even if that means Aurelians will also find him a little odd. He wants to truly love himself again. Weirdness and all. Which would perhaps put him in his most Aurelian state as there's nothing more Aurelian than love. | **His other goal is one that came with the move to Denali Station. A goal of self-acceptance and a release of insecurities that he picked up over his years in Starfleet. He knows he can't go back to exactly who he was before the academy, and he can't go back to exactly who he was before the assimilation. He will always have quirks and possibly neuroses that align with those experiences now. But he wants to reintegrate things he thought he had to hold back. Weird Aurelian traits he enjoyed about himself before he started feeling like others were uncomfortable with them. Before he started feeling that if he didn't wear his closest approximation of a humanoid mask people would not want to be around him. And he wants to do that while accepting that he doesn't need to go back to anything that no longer serves him, even if that means Aurelians will also find him a little odd. He wants to truly love himself again. Weirdness and all. Which would perhaps put him in his most Aurelian state as there's nothing more Aurelian than love. | ||
* '''Temperament:''' Ferociously loving. It doesn't take much for him to feel pure and genuine love for a person. He is forgiving, and he is kind. If he is not being kind, he is apologetic. He has a good sense of humor about things. He is outrageously gentle and thoughtful and strives to embody the essence of unconditional love, and also to embody the simpler meaning of his name "Ardent Passion." So he loves people and things passionately. Whether someone accepts it as truth or not, you can guarantee that he will never lie about anything that matters. It's unlikely he'd lie about small things either. He might hold something back on his own time until he's ready, and he might even brush it off a little bit if he's not ready. But if someone were to ask, he would be honest about his feelings. Including just saying he wasn't directly comfortable expressing his feelings on something yet. Because he sees no benefit to lying. He is extremely honest and communicative either on his own or with very easy prompting if he seems a little hesitant. | * '''Temperament:''' Nurturing. Ferociously loving. It doesn't take much for him to feel pure and genuine love for a person. He is forgiving, and he is kind. If he is not being kind, he is apologetic. He has a good sense of humor about things. He is outrageously gentle and thoughtful and strives to embody the essence of unconditional love, and also to embody the simpler meaning of his name "Ardent Passion." So he loves people and things passionately. Whether someone accepts it as truth or not, you can guarantee that he will never lie about anything that matters. It's unlikely he'd lie about small things either. He might hold something back on his own time until he's ready, and he might even brush it off a little bit if he's not ready. But if someone were to ask, he would be honest about his feelings. Including just saying he wasn't directly comfortable expressing his feelings on something yet. Because he sees no benefit to lying. He is extremely honest and communicative either on his own or with very easy prompting if he seems a little hesitant. | ||
* '''Values:''' Love, compassion, gratitude, family/friendship, kindness, honesty, humor, generosity, and forgiveness. He does not expect everyone to share these values in the way he holds them, but he will always try to encompass those things and lead by example. | * '''Values:''' Love, compassion, gratitude, family/friendship, kindness, honesty, humor, generosity, and forgiveness. He does not expect everyone to share these values in the way he holds them, but he will always try to encompass those things and lead by example. | ||
* '''Orientation:''' Dekas is ''super gay.'' He's always had a romantic interest in men and those with a certain type of masculine energy. However, he is not bound by his preferences and, as a hopeless romantic, slightly flirtatious sort, he's open to any love that could happen as a result. It would just take longer for the interest to form in that direction for others outside of that interest. But never you mind, he will be your best friend regardless. | * '''Orientation:''' Dekas is ''super gay.'' He's always had a romantic interest in men and those with a certain type of masculine energy. However, he is not bound by his preferences and, as a hopeless romantic, slightly flirtatious sort, he's open to any love that could happen as a result. It would just take longer for the interest to form in that direction for others outside of that interest. But never you mind, he will be your best friend regardless. | ||
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** Extremely restless when he has free time. If he doesn't have anything to actively do he has a tendency to pace around a lot. Holds a tension in his body that he doesn't really know what to do with sometimes, and has trouble acknowledging it lest he acknowledges why the tension is there. And while it is a slight bit better with the move to Denali Station, he still has a hard time staying asleep in his quarters at night. The pacing is very prevalent when he can't sleep. The room is a lot bigger than the one on Juneau, and significantly emptier until he can figure out how he'd like to decorate it. | ** Extremely restless when he has free time. If he doesn't have anything to actively do he has a tendency to pace around a lot. Holds a tension in his body that he doesn't really know what to do with sometimes, and has trouble acknowledging it lest he acknowledges why the tension is there. And while it is a slight bit better with the move to Denali Station, he still has a hard time staying asleep in his quarters at night. The pacing is very prevalent when he can't sleep. The room is a lot bigger than the one on Juneau, and significantly emptier until he can figure out how he'd like to decorate it. | ||
** Figuring out how to balance who he is now, with who he was before. He's taken on an inner challenge to allow himself to ''feel'' Aurelian again after so long of wearing his attempt at a humanoid mask to comfort others. And he is re-learning how to allow himself to be weird in an Aurelian way without the insecurity he's ended up with. It includes jumping off buildings and taking flight, singing more, and other such things. Possibly something akin to an identity crisis. It's a process. | ** Figuring out how to balance who he is now, with who he was before. He's taken on an inner challenge to allow himself to ''feel'' Aurelian again after so long of wearing his attempt at a humanoid mask to comfort others. And he is re-learning how to allow himself to be weird in an Aurelian way without the insecurity he's ended up with. It includes jumping off buildings and taking flight, singing more, and other such things. Possibly something akin to an identity crisis. It's a process. | ||
** Because of his extremely loving and nurturing personality, sometimes he unintentionally says things that border on therapy thoughts. Aurelians are strangely good at that. But one of the reasons he chose not to follow a caretaker/healer role like that as he could have is because he's aware enough of his own specific traits to understand that he personally would risk getting a little too close to a situation. He has the kind intentions of a healer, but a heart that is possibly too tender to be one in the official senses. So as someone who wants the best for people, he knows it's best that he doesn't risk making it feel like it's about him unintentionally. He's more than happy to be the very loving friend someone talks | ** Because of his extremely loving and nurturing personality, sometimes he unintentionally says things that border on therapy thoughts. Aurelians are strangely good at that. But one of the reasons he chose not to follow a caretaker/healer role like that as he could have is because he's aware enough of his own specific traits to understand that he personally would risk getting a little too close to a situation. He has the kind intentions of a healer, but a heart that is possibly too tender to be one in the official senses. So as someone who wants the best for people, he knows it's best that he doesn't risk making it feel like it's about him unintentionally. He's more than happy to be the very loving friend someone talks with to figure out they might need therapy. And he'll cheer them on in their therapy journey with an actual counselor! | ||
** He takes secret delight in being the tallest of the senior staff. Because he is the shortest of his Aurelian family, and it's nice to feel tall sometimes. | ** He takes secret delight in being the tallest of the senior staff. Because he is the shortest of his Aurelian family, and it's nice to feel tall sometimes. | ||
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** Rambling about life, history, or interests for extended periods. Aurelians are taught to appreciate and reflect on history and passions and the history of passions sometimes. Their rite of passage is to recall and recite their entire family and flock history in extensive detail. It often takes many hours, up to a few days. So he can be chatty. On the plus side, he'll listen to the things you say and never feel like it's too much. He thinks people's idea of "long-winded" is child's play. | ** Rambling about life, history, or interests for extended periods. Aurelians are taught to appreciate and reflect on history and passions and the history of passions sometimes. Their rite of passage is to recall and recite their entire family and flock history in extensive detail. It often takes many hours, up to a few days. So he can be chatty. On the plus side, he'll listen to the things you say and never feel like it's too much. He thinks people's idea of "long-winded" is child's play. | ||
** Very in tune with nature and elements. He feels more at home in open spaces with fresh air and trees. He is especially fond of rainforests and tropical climates. (Being raised in a tropical rainforest on Aurelia does make him less inclined toward snow, but he's still not opposed. He prefers rain and thinks rain is good luck.) He loves trees. And flowers. And knows a lot more than you'll originally think he will. But it's a part of life on Aurelia to know how to care for plants and the environment so he's quite aware of things. He has an insanely high ability to tell if a plant is unhealthy and get a feel for why and what it needs because of the way he grew up. | ** Very in tune with nature and elements. He feels more at home in open spaces with fresh air and trees. He is especially fond of rainforests and tropical climates. (Being raised in a tropical rainforest on Aurelia does make him less inclined toward snow, but he's still not opposed. He prefers rain and thinks rain is good luck.) He loves trees. And flowers. And knows a lot more than you'll originally think he will. But it's a part of life on Aurelia to know how to care for plants and the environment so he's quite aware of things. He has an insanely high ability to tell if a plant is unhealthy and get a feel for why and what it needs because of the way he grew up. | ||
** Expletives/exclamations referencing fire, feathers, or the Pho'nix. Most common ones being, "Feathers / My Feathers", "Flame in the sky", and "Six flames." Or "For flame's sake/For Phoenix' sake!" if he's feeling uncharacteristically extra annoyed. There are others, but those are the ones he uses the most. He can also be known to utter affectionate phrases with those themes, too if he feels strongly enough about it. Such as, "I love you from ashes to return." It's a lot like "to the moon and back" but involves Phoenix and fire imagery. | ** Expletives/exclamations referencing fire, feathers, or the Pho'nix. Most common ones being, "Feathers / My Feathers", "Flame in the sky", and "Six flames." Or "For flame's sake/For Phoenix' sake!" if he's feeling uncharacteristically extra annoyed. Recently picked up the slightly more crass "pluck me" and "get plucked" versions. There are others, but those are the ones he uses the most. He does sometimes swear with terran swears, but he tries to keep up a professional appearance and is minimal about that. He can also be known to utter affectionate phrases with those themes, too if he feels strongly enough about it. Such as, "I love you from ashes to return." It's a lot like "to the moon and back" but involves Phoenix and fire imagery. | ||
** He has a surprising appreciation for the typically creepy and macabre aspects of nature and | ** He has a surprising appreciation for the typically creepy and macabre aspects of nature. More to the point he doesn't understand the fear of spiders, bugs, or reptiles, because Aurelians keep absolutely huge tarantulas as pets where he's from among other unexpected pets like huge bats. He thinks they're beautiful and baby talks to them as easily as he does the pets he's met over the years from other cultures. Various forms of taxidermy are present in various Aurelian decor as well, and he thinks those things are neat, too. Not that you would know that about him outright unless he told you. | ||
** Currently, he's damn near impossible to offend for any significant length of time. Aurelian communication skills are instilled early. They communicate so effectively that they've never had a conflict that couldn't be resolved amongst themselves. Usually, a family conflict is solved within a day or two. And any conflict that lasts longer is worked on to find a good solution whenever it's possible. He will give anyone the benefit of the doubt even if that's naive, even if what someone has said to him is harmful. If you insult someone he cares about he's far more likely to bring it up instantly to make sure it's sorted out as something that isn't okay. But even that's done politely whenever it can be. He's also very willing to take accountability for his own misgivings and mistakes. | ** Currently, he's damn near impossible to offend for any significant length of time. Aurelian communication skills are instilled early. They communicate so effectively that they've never had a conflict that couldn't be resolved amongst themselves. Usually, a family conflict is solved within a day or two. And any conflict that lasts longer is worked on to find a good solution whenever it's possible. He will give anyone the benefit of the doubt even if that's naive, even if what someone has said to him is harmful. If you insult someone he cares about he's far more likely to bring it up instantly to make sure it's sorted out as something that isn't okay. But even that's done politely whenever it can be. He's also very willing to take accountability for his own misgivings and mistakes. | ||
**As a result he struggles with interpersonal situations that aren't as easily resolved. He does his best to handle them if they come up. But he struggles with the concept of things not being able to be talked out, even if at the end things don't end on the most positive note. He doesn't need an end goal where everything is happy-go-lucky and people are in each other's lives. But he still wants closure. He finds situations without closure something very difficult to handle. | **As a result he struggles with interpersonal situations that aren't as easily resolved. He does his best to handle them if they come up. But he struggles with the concept of things not being able to be talked out, even if at the end things don't end on the most positive note. He doesn't need an end goal where everything is happy-go-lucky and people are in each other's lives. But he still wants closure. He finds situations without closure something very difficult to handle. | ||