Marcus Dickens/Personal log 239108.14

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It's been a while since I've recorded a personal log, but there's been a lot happening. We've met the Krayav and the Grenushi, they seem to be quite similar in behaviour, but somehow they've been at war for too long. Fortunately we managed to facilitate peace talks, even if that meant to a yet to understand, cloud species being used by them. We need to get back there and check how they're treated. Officers came and go, but there seems to be a core being made of what I'm part of and I'm proud of it... proud... I'm proud of what I do as an officer, but couldn't say the same about as a person. I've... left my wife aside for duty and she'd decided to leave me. So, I'm no longer a married man, what sads me, but what could I do? I mean, the only way to stay by her side was to leave Starfleet, but I just couldn't do it in a jump,... and she coudln't wait no more. Now it'll be futile to do it as she won't get back to me. So that's what I get, what I've stood for all this time. I'm a Starfleet officer, nothing more, nothing less. Maybe I should focus on my career from now on, but I can't avoid thinking about what my future would have been with Vojana by my side.

Only time will tell what will happen in the future and how things will evolve, but right now my priority is my crew. They've dealt with a lot of things lately, including the EJS and a nasty virus that threatened to kill everyone. We've suffered looses, I'm particularly regretful for the loss of Lieutenat Phillips. He'd served with me on the Avandar and proved to be a reliable engineer and a trusted officer. I'll suggest Starfleet to give him a postume commendation after falling in the line of duty. I feel he deserves it.

Now we're going to DS26 where we hope to relax, recover ourselves and make some repairs and re-stock. I hope that things settle down there but the crew,... and for me.

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