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Below are the personal logs of [[Gwen'ora Tasen]], a Ba'ku Science Officer with the USS Astraeus.<br>
Unless specified, these logs were written and added onto during a period of time that extends between the the last log and the next. 
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<div style="background-color: white; margin: 15px; border-left: 6px solid steelblue; border-radius: 16px; padding: 5px 10px 5px 10px;">I've been running around since that day. On duty when I could be or out doing something extra to not be lost in my thoughts or memories or that stupid nightmare that won't go away. The events from Frontier Day were the worst days I have ever dealt with. The crazy kept coming. One insane bad after another. Not just the dominion...but them and the borg? Explosions and phaser fights...

Part of me wanted to reach out to my parents. Apologize for leaving and say I'm coming home. The other part wanted to scream at my father that I didn't become a Son'a for protecting myself and never would. Had he seen me with that phaser any of the times I held it? He would have lectured me on how many of our people became the Son'a when they became aggressive. He doesn't realize that I'm not them. I'm me. And I'm trying to deal with a monsoon of emotions and fears and figure out where in the world I stand. 

I've been bottling and working and running...speaking of which, I need to finish getting into uniform and stop this for now...there is a ceremony at Earth.

I got promoted with Sevan, Divya, and Kris. 

I don't know how to think or feel right now. I walked the gardens with Sevan and loved it. But then I'm back here with my thoughts. Time to get back to work and hopefully not think about nightmares. 
<div style="text-align:right;">- Gwen'ora Tasen</div></div>
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<div style="background-color: white; margin: 15px; border-left: 6px solid steelblue; border-radius: 16px; padding: 5px 10px 5px 10px;">We survived...by the Stars we survived. 

I'm sitting in a bed in Sickbay with so many others. But we survived. Some didn't...that number isn't out yet but I've seen Sevan in the mess of this bay. I don't envy her. I'm just glad she's alive and not hurt. 

Hurt...I'm alright more or less. I had a Nurse grumbling at me for not coming sooner but should be able to leave soon. 

Admiral Picard ended up saving us again. Thinking about where we were before that signal was ended...I think we could have done it without him. Eventually. With so many other lives lost...but we could have done it. 

This ship...the Astraeus, has SO many amazing officers that can work wanders. At least from what I've seen on the several bridge duties that I got during this mess. So many were amazing and ready to push and help whenever needed and do it quickly!

I just hope I can get there eventually. I want to stay. I think...I need to think as I know I'm running on the lack of sleep and whatever medicine they gave me high. But...I want to continue being an amazing Starfleet Ensign. And learn from anyone and everyone. I guess we'll need to see when I've had time to rest and process whatever we just went through. Because the stars know it was a lot. Oh! Grumpy nurse is coming.
<div style="text-align:right;">- Gwen</div></div>
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<div style="background-color: white; margin: 15px; border-left: 6px solid steelblue; border-radius: 16px; padding: 5px 10px 5px 10px;">We got concerning news and chased it. Changelings and...and everything. It's been insane. We went from shoreleave to chasing down Admiral Picard and the USS Titan...to changelings being on the ship. I have had bridge duty and been assigned on so many tasks over the last few days. It's been insane. 

Admiral Picard has been a man I have thought highly of since I met him on Ba'ku. He saved my people. He kept us from being whisked off by the Son'a and thrown in a new planet like we were trash. Our whole society would have changed and our planet destroyed. Instead because of him and his crew, my people get to continue to be the Ba'ku on our planet. Thanks to them. 

What could he be doing...that has Changelings and everything else going on during it. What does he know? 

Besides what do I not know. I know where I stand as an Ensign means I don't have all the information. And that's fine, I know I won't ever have all the information. And I trust our ship's Captain and First Officer. Everyone I have met that I know probably have the full story...are fantastic people. 

It's just hard to see the man that put the spark of exploration and discovery in you and realize he might be a criminal, or the cause of the horrible things that have been going on in our ship. 

Oh, we have a few hours of leave before we get to the Sol system. I can't sleep. So I'm going to add to this. Sevan and I are sitting in the Arboretum waiting for the call to return to stations. I'll be on the bridge again. 

I'm scared but...I think we will survive. We've got to, right? I really don't want to have survived a hundred and fifty plus years to die less than 4 months into my first year as an Ensign.
<div style="text-align:right;">- Ensign Gwen'ora Tasen</div></div>
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<div style="background-color: white; margin: 15px; border-left: 6px solid steelblue; border-radius: 16px; padding: 5px 10px 5px 10px;">The Astraeus has been amazing. I'm not sure when I'm going to actually save this, but I'll be adding to it when I get the chance. We have been traveling, I heard the end result will be the Sol system for Frontier Day, but I could be wrong. I just know I've been trying to get myself comfortable with this ship. With the ship and the inhabitants. 

Adding this in a few days later. Sevan and I, have bene roomies for a while. I love the way we talk in the room. It's so freeing and just easy? If I could be another species, I think I would have wanted to have the Betazoid Brain Communication Mojo that Sevan has. She's an amazing friend and roommate. I've been dragging her everywhere with me. Exploring the ship and meeting everyone. It's been amazing to get to start feeling at home here. 

Another note to this, I swear the science chief is having fun with me and another ensign. We've been assigned to our own labs but also to help in another two labs. Which means grunt work for the other scientists. Oh the joys of being a lower decker. We heard the rumors in academy but it's true. We are where we are to learn but damn to we get set with interesting tasks while we are learning. 

I love it.

I hear though we are nearing the end of our leave. I wonder what other antics I'll get into on alpha shift or off shift. 
<div style="text-align:right;">- Gwen'ora, the best lower decker ever</div></div>
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<div style="background-color: white; margin: 15px; border-left: 6px solid steelblue; border-radius: 16px; padding: 5px 10px 5px 10px;">I GRADUATED! 

By the stars I was worried, sort of. The final test was a collective mission with other cadets that were transferred to Starbase 118 with the rest of us. The word is we're all getting assigned to ships that report to this starbase, and that's why we were all shipped out here from Terra. I was looking into the available ships. The Artemis is one of the ships that works near the Briar Patch. So that ship would be close to home. But in all honesty. I would rather not be assigned somewhere close to home. I would rather be as far away from Ba'ku as possible. Less likely of a chance to run into Faren...and more of a chance to see species I've never seen before, plants I've never seen before, and be able to grow beyond the confides of Ba'ku. 

We receive our assignments soon. I'm writing this curled up on a bench with Sevantha and nearby is another Cadet, Linna. We did fantastic. I just hope we 

USS ASTRAEUS! I'm looking up the ship now, it was one of the ships that I looked information up on mostly because of the vast science department and arboretum. Sevantha Saa is another Cadet that got assigned there. Wait. We aren't Cadets! Ensign Gwen'ora Tasen! That's me! A scientist aboard the USS Astraeus, well will eventually be aboard it. This is amazing!

<div style="text-align:right;">- Gwen, the best Ba'ku Science Officer Ensign!</div></div>
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