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*'''Name:''' Ace.
*'''Name:''' Ace.
*'''Joined Starbase 118:''' February 2021
*'''Joined Starbase 118:''' February 2021
*'''Gender:''' Gender-fluid (They/them, She/her. Both are interchangeable.)
*'''Gender:''' Gender-fluid. (Preferably They/she. But people do use he/him around here because of my character. Which is fine. ''For now.)''
*'''Age:''' 26
*'''Age:''' 27
*'''Occupation:''' I work in a group home for people with disabilities.
*'''Occupation:''' I work in a group home for people with disabilities.
*'''Location:''' America
*'''Location:''' America
*'''OOC Rank:''' Lieutenant
*'''OOC Rank:''' Lt. Commander
*'''Hobbies/interests:''' Writing, reading (I tend to enjoy Urban fantasy, psychological thrillers, sci-fi, and books that sit in a genre I don't know the exact term for but are somewhere between a mystery and just kinda abstract, borderline magical realism but not quite? I'll read anything so long as the story is fun, or the topic intrigues me.) I also like roleplaying/simming, Star Trek, TTRPGs, Cats, and most other animals.
*'''Hobbies/interests:''' Writing, reading (I love Urban fantasy, psychological thrillers, sci-fi, and books that sit in a genre I don't know the exact term for but are somewhere between a mystery and an abstract, borderline magical realism? I'll read anything so long as the story is fun, or the topic intrigues me, though. I also love a good fanfiction. Or a bad one. Sometimes they're good for a laugh.) I also like roleplaying/simming, Star Trek, TTRPGs, Cats, and most other animals.
*'''Favorite Trek series/movie:''' DS9, Enterprise, and Lower Decks. Runner up: TNG because I love Data with my entire soul.
*'''Favorite Trek series/movie:''' DS9, Enterprise, and Lower Decks. Runner up: TNG because I love Data with my entire soul.
*'''[[Writer ID]]:''' J239802D12
*'''[[Writer ID]]:''' J239802D12
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===How I came to SB118===
===How I came to SB118===


For a very long time, I actually didn't like Star Trek. It was a stubborn reaction as a child that had no basis in actually disliking it beyond wanting something to be angry about. But my dad (and my twin sister) really liked Star Trek. My dad's favorites were TNG and Enterprise, my sister liked Voyager. But I didn't really allow myself to listen to them talk about any of those until 2009 when the first JJ. Abrams Star Trek movie came out and they convinced me to go with them to the theater to see it when I finally conceded that Star Trek was pretty cool. Didn't immediately fall into a full interest in it. But now I could listen to my dad talk about it, and occasionally watch some intermittent episodes of Voyager with my sister. Sometime in the midst of it, I got into RP in other fandoms and mediums. Not Star Trek yet, but that was the introduction to RP. With more than a few shifts in fandom and what characters I was writing in those places, my friends eventually started playing in the Star Trek universe which showed up where I could read it. And that's when I started considering getting into it for real. Over the years, I tried to watch various iterations of Trek, and kept getting distracted with other interests. But I was watching little bits over multiple years. I watched some of the movies. Sometimes restarting and trying again. But it wasn't until late 2020 that I went into a full deep dive into it. I binged it. And I started really getting into conversations about it with my dad. It was something I found a lot of enjoyment in talking to him about because he could go really in-depth into episodes he loved and thought were funny and thoughtful and it was a good time.
I started roleplaying through various mediums and fandoms around the age of 15. But my exposure to the Star Trek fandom was extremely limited for the majority of my roleplay experiences. Because until I gave the 2009 JJ Abrams Star Trek a chance around age 13, I was stubborn about really disliking it as an attempt to say I was different than the other people in my house who already really liked it. And even when I could admit it was alright, I still wasn't into it yet. But friends did eventually start writing in the fandom where I could see it over the years, and that's when I decided to give it some chances. It still took a number of years to get anywhere near attached, and up until 2020 to binge a good number of the series one after the other.  


However, at the very end of 2020, my dad died unexpectedly. So I was grieving, I'd lost the person I felt most comfortable talking about it with. Because even though there were others around me who liked Star Trek, it didn't feel the same. At the same time, the place I'd been writing for a good number of years in a different fandom had already started to feel less fun, even before my dad's death. Many of the friends I used to be close with either stopped writing there or we just naturally drifted apart. The community I was part of became more selective and elitist. And I was feeling like I needed a change for a while, things were slowing down and I was stagnating in both writing and RPing and I missed it. My dad's death really had me needing that change. I gravitated toward my most recent interest, and the interest I felt most connected to my dad; Star Trek. I looked for Star Trek RP things in early 2021. There were a few I was considering. But I found Starbase118 to be the one that was most approachable. Its main page was really well designed, the wikis were fun to peruse. And based on really looking through it all, I realized it was an active community and decided to apply.
Even as it was becoming a special interest, I still wasn't writing in the fandom, though. I wasn't quite ready to shift out of the fandom community that I'd been part of for many years at that point. I had friends and attachments to it all. Even though it had long since started to go from something that made me happy, to something that I almost dreaded. But I was enjoying Star Trek in my own time, and enjoying the many conversations with my dad about it about which ones we liked and why. It was nice to be able to comfortably talk about it.
 
Then at the end of 2020, my dad died very suddenly. I was grieving. Understandably unhappy. And I knew pretty quickly that I could not stay in the community I was in if it made me unhappy to be there when I was already sad enough. But I also really didn't want to give up writing or roleplaying. Despite the community issues, it was still a comfort to me. So I looked into Star Trek writing groups as a comfort for the grief and the community. There were a few others I was considering, but 118 stood out as well-established, welcoming, and possibly the least confusing setup of the ones I was looking into. I also love a wiki deep dive. So I gave it a try, and here I am!     


===History===
===History===


*'''Where were you first placed? What was it like starting to sim on your vessel?:''' My first ship was The USS Juneau under Captain Oddas Aria. (Which transferred over to Denali Station in May of 2022/2399) I came in at the end of a mission called Visitors in the Night, where the Juneau was investigating a black hole circling Quasar with a pair of long-dead vessels. Honestly coming in at the end of a mission was a little disorienting because I didn't have all the character context yet, and I was nervous about all the new people because I wasn't used to the setup yet. I struggled very much to keep up. The number of people was overwhelming and I was also grieving a really recent death and dealing with severe mental health problems and impostor syndrome. It had me needing an LOA for a few months. That wasn't the fault of anyone except myself. I took the time to focus more on myself and therapy because I needed that during that time for far more than all this. And even if I'd chosen not to come back, I would have continued with that. But in truth if not for the support and encouragement of my mentor and the Captain, I don't think I would have come back from my LOA.
*'''Where were you first placed? What was it like starting to sim on your vessel?:''' My first ship was The USS Juneau under Captain Oddas Aria. (The crew officially transferred over to Denali Station in May of 2022) But I came in at the end of a mission called Visitors in the Night. I'll admit, I started out on a rough note. I was in the very beginning stages of grief, among other things. Grief isn't very conducive to keeping up the way I wanted. So I ended up taking an LOA for a few months to make sure I was focusing on my mental health and getting better. I came very close to not coming back. I didn't want to cycle through the motions. I was ready to just let it go. Then the Captain emailed me around the end of the timeframe I said I needed the LOA, which I didn't expect. It forced me to re-examine what I wanted, and what I felt capable of contributing now that I'd had some time away and more therapy. I didn't immediately return. Life was a little too busy for about another month. But once it eased up, I gave it one more round of thought, emailed the captain, and said I was ready. I'm really glad I did.
*'''What have been your greatest challenges in this group?:''' The severity of the imposter syndrome in conjunction with all my other mental health issues. You never truly get used to the sheer awfulness of feeling like you won't add up. Comparison really is the thief of joy and it is an ongoing process full of ups and downs and therapy to stop myself from stealing my own joy away from myself.
*'''What have been your greatest challenges in this group?:''' There are a number of things I struggle with at any given time. But currently, the hardest thing in the world for some reason is personal, out-of-character emails and messages. Especially if I have a question. Submitting to the mortifying ordeal of being actively perceived is sometimes very scary. I'm working on it and doing better about it by a small degree in recent months. Thanks, therapy.
*'''What have been your greatest achievements in this group?:''' During the mission right after my LOA, I was put in an away team where both of the other original team members (including the away team leader herself) suddenly took an LOA for one reason or another right at the start. I was the only original team member present on that away team. I really thought I was going to have to figure that out on my own somehow. But The Captain and My Mentor/XO were quick to get people to write with me (including themselves with PNPCs). They could have recalled that away team and effectively retconned that part of things. They could have waited more and made me deal with it alone longer. But they didn't. Effectively, I got to "lead" that away team and make a decision that made an opening for a meaningful character arc after the fact. And in the process, it allowed me to feel more confident with my place in this group. And I'm proud of myself for not giving up. Secondarily, I'm pretty proud of myself for how often I post appreciations on the forums for fellow crewmates. I really do feel like they deserve it.
*'''What have been your greatest achievements in this group?:''' Dekas' Assimilation Arc. There were elements of Borg things during "The Silent Monster" mission on the Juneau. The majority of the members of the team I was part of had taken sudden LOAs right at the start, and I wanted to try something interesting that I had an idea for. The Captain gave me the go-ahead to allow Dekas to get assimilated at the end of it. And it has led to very interesting character development and a boost in confidence about what I bring to the table. I also feel proud of the sheer number of appreciations I post on the forums. Also how quickly I've moved up the chain of command to some degree, I'm honored people have enough faith in my potential.
*'''What do you ultimately hope to accomplish?:''' I'd like to do all that I can to be an excellent supporting player on Denali Station and any ship or base I might be on in the future. I want to be able to help new players feel as secure and appreciated as I've felt with the command staff of the Juneau, and I want to help people find those moments where they can have their character or their writing style really shine and be awesome. I think I'd feel really good if I could just manage to do that much. So perhaps the goal is to eventually be able to be a mentor on Denali Station once I'm ready to do so.
*'''What do you ultimately hope to accomplish?:''' Three things: 1.) Be the best mentor I can be. 2.) Since I'm on the Training Team, I'd like to reach a point of being able to at minimum be the First Officer of a training class, maybe CO eventually. But at least FO. The mini goal within that desire? To have at least one situation where I'm in a CO/FO training team dynamic with [[Tomas Falt]]. I think we could rock it and really get cadets invested together, and I think in theory the dynamic of having an Aurelian CO/or FO for a training class is hysterical already, but considering Tomas Falt is a character who knows Dekas, it makes for some interesting interactions around cadets. (Tom, if you ever end up on this page, hi. Now you know my secret goal lol.) And 3.) I actually think I could kick butt as a first officer eventually. This one's a very long-term, future goal. I have no intention of leaving Denali Station to become someone's XO until it feels right, and I'm ready for it. But I'd like to reach a point one day where it does.
 
===Unofficial tips===
If you're reading this, hi! You've reached the Unofficial Tips portion of this page. Because even if it's not super likely to be read, on the off chance you do, these are good things to know if you don't already do them yourself! Obviously, there are a number of rules, tips, and tricks all over the wiki about how best to write, and you obviously get tips from mentors and Captains. You should definitely be following those as well. But these are things I've realized how to put into words that I never really saw put into direct words this way because I think there's a level where it's assumed you already understand these things. But as someone with neuro-divergencies and troubles remembering when things aren't directly laid out, here are some direct things that are implied but not always stated!
*'''Don't be afraid to use the whole ship/base as an environment!:''' Pretty self-explanatory. Sometimes a scene will have many people in the same place, and unless it's not really attainable or realistic to "split the party" somewhere, or your place makes the most sense for you to be at the time, the oversaturation of a scene can become a bit stressful to try and interact with. But if you are able to, using other parts of the ship or installation you're on can really spice things up and make things less oversaturated in the story going on and it does things a whole lot of good for pacing and scenes. Notably, you shouldn't be doing things on your own for too long, this is a cooperative game and we do want to play with you too. It's good in moderation, but be sure you end with the reconnection with others in some way. The point is not to separate yourself and not talk to anyone, the point is to find ways to communicate creatively regardless of where you are. The use of combadges and commstations is a viable option when available. As is bringing someone with you when it makes sense. Using more of the installation you're on as part of your environment is a really good way to add to an oversaturated scene if you're able to.
*'''Short time skips can be your friend:''' If something is dragging on in a scene, everyone's character has had some chances to submit input to the situation at hand, and now everything is feeling a little cyclical and slowing it down; unless otherwise stated, or it is a mission briefing scene that's not quite done yet, generally, it is okay to use a quick time skip to the start of the next set of scenes to start the juicier parts of a mission.
*'''Not everyone leads from the Captain's Chair:''' This one has taken me a lot of mental reminders to process. Sometimes I even still struggle with it. But your goals here don't have to include becoming the Captain of an installation. Sometimes I worry that I'm not doing enough just because my ambitions don't currently include being the ring leader. I see people get promoted and I wonder if I should try to do that. But I'm slowly learning that there is nothing that I "should" be aiming for other than having fun and trying to tell a good story with friends. My goal is to do that and to help others have fun, but that does not need to mean I play Captain. Because not everyone leads from the Captain's chair. Remember that when you feel anxious. It's okay to lead from the sidelines and help out in other ways. Not everyone has the time, energy, or personality to want that. And you don't have to want that. Because your main goal should ALWAYS be to have a good time and help others have a good time with you. Take your time to reach the Captain's chair and really consider if that's even a chair you want to sit in. And if you find that it is, know that you don't have to do so at lightning speed. Cherish the time you have as a lower-decker.


===Player Characters===
===Player Characters===
*[[Dekas]]
*[[Dekas]]
===PNPCs===
* [[Nieda Zivon]]
=== Cadet Training Character===
* [[/Vanya|Vanya]]


===Ships===
===Ships===
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* [[USS Juneau]] (Previous Ship)
* [[USS Juneau]] (Previous Ship)


===PNPCs===
===OOC activites===
* N/A
* Wiki Operator on Denali Station. (A role I share with [[John Kendrick]])
* Mission Archivist on Denali Station (Another role I share with ya boi [[John Kendrick]] <3 )
* Member of the Denali Staff & Mentor
* Member of the Training Team
* Potentially more to come... eventually.
 
===Contact===
''(It should go without saying that this is for people in the group to reach me only. But if you need me, this is the email to reach me at)''


===OOC activites===
* cosmo.cosmm@gmail.com
* Mission Archivist (A role I share with ya boi [[John Kendrick]] <3 )
* Not currently anything else, but I plan on it... eventually.  


[[Category:User Pages]]
[[Category:User Pages]]

Revision as of 23:27, 6 February 2023

Stats

  • Name: Ace.
  • Joined Starbase 118: February 2021
  • Gender: Gender-fluid. (Preferably They/she. But people do use he/him around here because of my character. Which is fine. For now.)
  • Age: 27
  • Occupation: I work in a group home for people with disabilities.
  • Location: America
  • OOC Rank: Lt. Commander
  • Hobbies/interests: Writing, reading (I love Urban fantasy, psychological thrillers, sci-fi, and books that sit in a genre I don't know the exact term for but are somewhere between a mystery and an abstract, borderline magical realism? I'll read anything so long as the story is fun, or the topic intrigues me, though. I also love a good fanfiction. Or a bad one. Sometimes they're good for a laugh.) I also like roleplaying/simming, Star Trek, TTRPGs, Cats, and most other animals.
  • Favorite Trek series/movie: DS9, Enterprise, and Lower Decks. Runner up: TNG because I love Data with my entire soul.
  • Writer ID: J239802D12

How I came to SB118

I started roleplaying through various mediums and fandoms around the age of 15. But my exposure to the Star Trek fandom was extremely limited for the majority of my roleplay experiences. Because until I gave the 2009 JJ Abrams Star Trek a chance around age 13, I was stubborn about really disliking it as an attempt to say I was different than the other people in my house who already really liked it. And even when I could admit it was alright, I still wasn't into it yet. But friends did eventually start writing in the fandom where I could see it over the years, and that's when I decided to give it some chances. It still took a number of years to get anywhere near attached, and up until 2020 to binge a good number of the series one after the other.

Even as it was becoming a special interest, I still wasn't writing in the fandom, though. I wasn't quite ready to shift out of the fandom community that I'd been part of for many years at that point. I had friends and attachments to it all. Even though it had long since started to go from something that made me happy, to something that I almost dreaded. But I was enjoying Star Trek in my own time, and enjoying the many conversations with my dad about it about which ones we liked and why. It was nice to be able to comfortably talk about it.

Then at the end of 2020, my dad died very suddenly. I was grieving. Understandably unhappy. And I knew pretty quickly that I could not stay in the community I was in if it made me unhappy to be there when I was already sad enough. But I also really didn't want to give up writing or roleplaying. Despite the community issues, it was still a comfort to me. So I looked into Star Trek writing groups as a comfort for the grief and the community. There were a few others I was considering, but 118 stood out as well-established, welcoming, and possibly the least confusing setup of the ones I was looking into. I also love a wiki deep dive. So I gave it a try, and here I am!

History

  • Where were you first placed? What was it like starting to sim on your vessel?: My first ship was The USS Juneau under Captain Oddas Aria. (The crew officially transferred over to Denali Station in May of 2022) But I came in at the end of a mission called Visitors in the Night. I'll admit, I started out on a rough note. I was in the very beginning stages of grief, among other things. Grief isn't very conducive to keeping up the way I wanted. So I ended up taking an LOA for a few months to make sure I was focusing on my mental health and getting better. I came very close to not coming back. I didn't want to cycle through the motions. I was ready to just let it go. Then the Captain emailed me around the end of the timeframe I said I needed the LOA, which I didn't expect. It forced me to re-examine what I wanted, and what I felt capable of contributing now that I'd had some time away and more therapy. I didn't immediately return. Life was a little too busy for about another month. But once it eased up, I gave it one more round of thought, emailed the captain, and said I was ready. I'm really glad I did.
  • What have been your greatest challenges in this group?: There are a number of things I struggle with at any given time. But currently, the hardest thing in the world for some reason is personal, out-of-character emails and messages. Especially if I have a question. Submitting to the mortifying ordeal of being actively perceived is sometimes very scary. I'm working on it and doing better about it by a small degree in recent months. Thanks, therapy.
  • What have been your greatest achievements in this group?: Dekas' Assimilation Arc. There were elements of Borg things during "The Silent Monster" mission on the Juneau. The majority of the members of the team I was part of had taken sudden LOAs right at the start, and I wanted to try something interesting that I had an idea for. The Captain gave me the go-ahead to allow Dekas to get assimilated at the end of it. And it has led to very interesting character development and a boost in confidence about what I bring to the table. I also feel proud of the sheer number of appreciations I post on the forums. Also how quickly I've moved up the chain of command to some degree, I'm honored people have enough faith in my potential.
  • What do you ultimately hope to accomplish?: Three things: 1.) Be the best mentor I can be. 2.) Since I'm on the Training Team, I'd like to reach a point of being able to at minimum be the First Officer of a training class, maybe CO eventually. But at least FO. The mini goal within that desire? To have at least one situation where I'm in a CO/FO training team dynamic with Tomas Falt. I think we could rock it and really get cadets invested together, and I think in theory the dynamic of having an Aurelian CO/or FO for a training class is hysterical already, but considering Tomas Falt is a character who knows Dekas, it makes for some interesting interactions around cadets. (Tom, if you ever end up on this page, hi. Now you know my secret goal lol.) And 3.) I actually think I could kick butt as a first officer eventually. This one's a very long-term, future goal. I have no intention of leaving Denali Station to become someone's XO until it feels right, and I'm ready for it. But I'd like to reach a point one day where it does.

Player Characters

PNPCs

Cadet Training Character

Ships

OOC activites

  • Wiki Operator on Denali Station. (A role I share with John Kendrick)
  • Mission Archivist on Denali Station (Another role I share with ya boi John Kendrick <3 )
  • Member of the Denali Staff & Mentor
  • Member of the Training Team
  • Potentially more to come... eventually.

Contact

(It should go without saying that this is for people in the group to reach me only. But if you need me, this is the email to reach me at)

  • cosmo.cosmm@gmail.com
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