Tomis, The early years
Her first hosts were strict followers of Surak and with complete suppression of emotions, kind during Ki’s gentle years, when too much strong emotions could harm her. But at the same time made her grew up thinking that her powers are something to be ashamed of, what is following her whole her life, even now.
Second hosts were "V'tosh ka'tur" or "Vulcans without Logic". Life with them was constant test for Ki and everything she learned about suppressing emotions and controlling her powers. But she was happy. For the first time in her life Ki was feeling... but it didn’t last long. Her hosts decided to join their like-minded compatriots in their nomadic life and search for those who left long ago in search for fusion of logic and emotions.
Ki, taught to experience emotions fully and abandoned again, was devastated. And this was the first time since her arrival to Vulcan that she was reminded how different she is, when was denied Kolinahr.
Again in “proper” family managed to find a tutor and make him lead her on a ritual pilgrimage which she planned to be a cleansing, but old man teaches her many important lessons, making her appreciate her ancestry, and everything her difference mean. And among them also the fact that her emotions as strong as they are, are there to help her learn control.
Among many stories, last one stayed in her mind forever...
Sarvak: The battle rage between two “wolves” inside us all. One is Evil - It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego. The other is Good - It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.
After thinking about it for some ime she asked..
TOMIS: Which wolf wins?
Sarvak: The one you feed.
Finishing this story he left her in a base of mount Seleya, to meditate through his teachings and accept IDIC.
When returned “home”, she did it with decision to join StarFleet...