- SD 239701.21 - Emergency Counseling Hologram, Counselor: , USS Eagle
- Counseling Assessment: Ensign Serinus reported in overdue for an in-fleet counseling session. He reported feeling overburdened with responsibilities. Ensign Serinus finally came to visit after his colleague, LJG Kano Risha, was promoted ahead of him. He reported momentary bitterness, but then placed the blame on himself. He reported otherwise having a good working relationship with Risha. Next, I asked him his feelings on the losses incurred on the most recent mission. At first, he reported not having much time to think about it, but with some further questioning, he expressed regret over the waste of life, as well as bitterness of what occurred and how much worse it could have been. I asked him if he had feelings of paranoia, which he denied. Asking him if he was certain, he told me that I didn't understand, for which I apologized. I told Ensign Serinus that it was okay to feel vulnerable at times. He addressed how Security personnel are trained to be wary at all times. I asked if he ever had trouble turning off such hyperfixation, and he reported having more trouble recently. Next, we discussed his uneasiness at how lax security and intelligence standards can be. I pointed out how this line of thinking can lead to draconian measures. Ensign Serinus acknowledged this, but reiterated his loyalty to the Federation values. I asked him if I could give him a word of advice, which he was agreeable. I told him that he should occasionally "let himself off the hook," he then informs me that he's unaccustomed to anything but a rigorous and disciplined lifestyle. I explained that none of us could have seen an embedded Cardassian spy in such a high rank. I explained to Ensign Serinus that he did what he had to, and he enquired what that was. I responded that he had done his duty. He thanked me, and went on to reiterate his dedication to self improvement. I reminded him that nobody is omnipotent, and that he must not be too hard on himself. He nodded his acknowledgement. At this time, I reminded the Ensign that he performed his duties best in the moment instead of focusing on the past. At this point the session began to wrap up. The Ensign declined to schedule a follow-up appointment, but I told him that I would be here for him if he needed me. He returned this courtesy, and showed himself out.
Patient arrived promptly at 1300. After asking him how he was, he stated that he was well enough, considering what we had been through in the last couple of weeks. As he took the seat I then offered, he still seemed quite tall. He expressed that the nature of the current mission had made his work as acting section chief much harder than he had expected on a smaller ship, and that he felt overworked, even as a self described workaholic.
Patient then described a hallucination that he had on the job. A vision of being cast into the void of outer space and trying to hold on to life for as long as possible.
When I asked how has was doing now, he answered that he found that he so busy that he didn't get much time to think about it. He found this to be a positive side effect of being overworked.
He affirmed having a medical appointment recently, but did not tell the screener about the hallucination,because he has never displayed any telepathic abilities before, and believes that the vision was induced by the same entity that wreaked havoc in the Science Lab at about the same time, a conclusion he reached upon talking with Ensign Zicv.
He refused my offer of help for sleep, or disconnection therapy. He stated that he's sleeping fine, and that he feels the hallucination gave him something of a rebirth "a religious or spiritual experience"
He stated that the positive effects have mostly worn off, but he still stays much too busy to think about it too often.
When I asked if there was anything else he wanted to talk about, he said that he did have something, but that he could in no way do so.
I asked one more time, and then he saw himself out.